you say it’s hard enough to live
don’t tell me that it’s over
Stand up!

I feel my vision slipping in and out of focus,
But I’m pushing on for that horizon,
I’m pushing on,
Now I’ve got the blowing wind against my face

It’s not so bad

Higher and higher,
We’re gonna take it,
Down to the wire,
We’re gonna make it,
Out of the fire,
Higher and higher.

– the killers

So (deep breath), I told everyone. My family and close by friends. It was a relief. Also comforting to know the different takes but just that the love and support is there. I can’t wait until this weekend when I go home, to be sanctuary, and just give my heart to the Lord.

I have to admit that I haven’t talked to the big man upstairs, God yet. It’s hard when you’re in a dorm room. That’s why I’m looking forward to going home.

I love the new killers song bling (confessions of a king). It’s very motivational and heart breaking. I just think “its not so bad”.
My friends did that for me. I am honestly thankful for Kellee, Quita, and Sonny, Walter. I still have to tell Serge but I know things can’t go nowhere but up when you’re down. I can’t express how much their support means to me. But I’m grateful.

Well no more of this. At least for now. I wanted to write down some other things actually.

Movie Review

I saw these two movie today in which I totally appreciated, hated, loved, and was in awe by it. Bulsworth. & Wag the Dog..

Bulworth review:

It’s a Senatorial campaign feature on incumbent Senator Jay Billington Bulworth. The guy hires his someone to kill himself on the campaign trail in California but realize his life is worth living. He has this transformation in which he becomes a true honest politician with a sharp tongue and bluntness exposing the evils of politicians in Capitol Hill. Money.

There’s a line in a movie that struck me ” You got to be a spirit! You can’t be no ghost”. And that’s what great men and women who tried to change the establishments in this country have become: ghosts in our past. Examples that come into mind are Martin Luther King, John F. Kennedy, Gandhi, and others who were assassinated or ideas forgotten. Why? Because the true change is in policy of these actions.

This movie unveiled with Obscenity, the political correctness and taboo-topics, that candidates and politicians alike shy away from. I was moved by the realness of it all. Although, at first I sneered and scoffed at the betrayal of the “ghettoness” and the unprofessionalism the movie took. But isn’t that what drives scandal in the political world? Anything out of the ordinary that shakes up pre-existing establishment?

But it all panned out in the end. Into an A-HA! moment in which it all came into consensus. The poverty, the uninsured, and the business, everything interconnected in one moment: defiance.

Wag the dog:
robert de niro & dustin hoffman - Wag the Dog

The second movie that engrave skepticism in my government is Wag the Dog. It’s a spin on a political consultant doing everything in his power and beyond control to have the President re-elect, to such lengths he even created a WAR with a Hollywood producer.

Two things stuck out to me in this film: One was the idea of taking credit. And the other was that how well crafted anything political is. And how mass media and the belief that is given into stories are accepted without question but fed off fear? It was unnerving the conformity of the public, the CIA, and those in motion to support the production of a “real war”. I ask myself and wonder, if I’d have the courage to investigate? Or simply conform? Not an easy thing to deal.

But anyway, I suggest you watch those films whether you are a political junkie or not. They’re really quite entertaining. I mean you have Halle Berry in one and then Dustin Hoffman and Robert de Niro in another. What do you have to loose? Rent it. And do some thinking, go with it.